“THE RESULTS ARE THE SAME”
by OPOVV, ©2014
(Nov. 24, 2014) — Twenty-two of our Veterans are opting out, as a career choice, as it were, by deliberately choosing to stop the memories by the most permanent means available, every day: by committing suicide.
Depending what side you’re on, the living or the dead, the word “suicide” either has relevance or it does not. To the living it’s easy: he or she took their own life by “taking the easy way out.” Of course there’s the possibility, even the probability, that if the living were to have the exact same life experience and therefore, memories, as those who killed themselves, maybe such a flippant remark as “took the easy way out” wouldn’t be so carelessly tossed around as if that were the verdict, and the only “rational” verdict possible.
But the world is constructed of contours of many convoluted shades of “right” and “wrong.” Seldom are things what they seem from an impromptu scrutiny. Detailed examination may reveal multiple possibilities whose conclusions may change with time and maturity.
Each suicide is an individual tragedy, to be sure, but maybe all the facts are never revealed. Maybe no facts are revealed. Maybe the act is justified, at least to those who go through with it. Maybe it isn’t as it seems on the surface: maybe the act was an “execution.” Maybe the Veteran deserved to die; after all, we must consider all possibilities. Just maybe the Veteran tried her or himself in the court of their conscience and was found wanting. Maybe the verdict rendered was: “You are hereby sentenced to a lifetime of bad memories.” Or maybe the verdict was the death sentence, to be carried out whenever.
Some Vets suffer from nightmares, waking up in the middle of the night sweating, shaking, and scared out of their wits. All are surprised, at first, that they even remembered or gave it any in-depth thought about what the dream was about in the first place.
Surprise turns to embarrassment, which turns to dread. Vets dreading the night, afraid to close their eyes because waking up from a nightmare is truly a horrible and frightening experience. The worst way to come out of a nightmare is alone, but if you’re with someone it’s hard not to feel ashamed, not of the subject of the nightmare, but that you were, at that moment, 100% vulnerable, open to any sneak attack, unable to defend yourself or your family.
And so, rather than being a burden, many Vets kill themselves because they feel an acute sense of responsibility to those they care most about: the world would be a better place without them. In their mind it’s doing the right thing, the honorable deed.
And so, in conclusion, honor those who have died by their own hand as much as you would honor those who died on the field of valor because, when the dust and smoke have cleared, the results are the same: one dead soldier.
Sharon Rondeau has operated The Post & Email since April 2010, focusing on the Obama birth certificate investigation and other government corruption news. She has reported prolifically on constitutional violations within Tennessee’s prison and judicial systems.